Salutations,

I'm Anastasia and I've decided to make a blog for want of something better to do.
I'm fourteen, I live in Ye Olde Adelaide, I like to draw pictures, mainly of woodland animals and bizarre shamans and all manner of craziness. I'm no good at painting though.I love music like nothing else, my absolute favourite three bands are Joy Division, Pixies and Vivian Girls, I don't like old music because I'm some pretentious type of person I just like it because when you are young discovering good old music is an amazing experience, as a teenager you feel like there is only modern music and don't get me wrong there are a lot of modern bands I adore ( Vivian Girls, Kings Of Convenience, Bright Eyes, The XX etc.) but there's something about realising how much good stuff there is still left to listen to and it's very refreshing to hear something new, even if it is old! I have some unbelievably lovely friends that I'd be nothing without too and a few trusted family members, I believe I need to appreciate my family much more, we have gigantic differences but if they were'nt here I wouldn't be either.I eat alot. Mostly Pocky and 2 Minute Noodles, I've been vegetarian since June and it makes me a bit weak because I don't take Iron and Protein supplements and whatnot. I barely excersize and I failed P.E. this year but I intend to get better marks in everything next year. Hopefully my emotional state will be better then. I have had quite an okay year but I've been feeling decidedly miserable and lethargic since the start of the holidays, I really took a turn for the worse which is exactly what happened around this time last year and it lasted until around the end of first term this year, I have no idea what to do about it so I'm just going to concentrate on goals like getting a job and making things and being creative because this is something I take great comfort in.
At this very moment I'm eating puréed fruit and listening to Jealous Bones by Rolo Tomassi.
In the past I've done many other things like had a funeral for an ant and fallen out of a willow tree then pretended a bear attacked me but those things really aren't relevant.
The problem is I don't know what is relevant anymore.
So I'll sort the relevant from the irrelevant by writing down things I like and how I feel which is what this blog is for.
Yesterday I had a theological argument with a girl I hardly knew.
I was at my mother's house, I hadn't been there for a while and they had visitors.
My stepfather's best friend was recently told he had a month left to live and the subject
turned to death. When I told her I didn't believe in God she started asking me "But what if he is real and you burn in hell?" and I realised that I really wouldn't care. There's a lot I hate about myself but what I don't hate is that I'm not scared of what happens to me when I die. I realised that even if I went to Hell, I wouldn't want to go back and live my life in fear of going to Hell even if it meant I got to go to Heaven. I've decided I'd rather just do what I can and not think too hard about what no one knows rather than worry, I have enough things to worry about that don't concern what happens at the end of my life, or everyone's lives for that matter. It was alright at my mother's house though, we sang Coasters songs together and ate Tandoori lentil burgers. I did my stepbrother Dominic's hair like John Travolta and I also realised my baby sister Hannah looks like The Turtle Man from The Master Of Disguise, ahahah, anyway.
Oh, I went to see Avatar (in 3D) last night, too, It was fairly epic.
I'm very sore all over because I got rollerskates for Christmas and they're on a mission to kill me or at least repeatedly, unexpectedly and painfully aqquaint me with gravel and concrete.
I'm getting the hang of them though, but right now I'm going to end this blog because I'm going to watch Little Miss Sunshine.
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